When someone says “how are you?“, and gives you “that look”, I wonder what they want to hear.
Do they actually want to hear…
“I have cancer and the treatment is causing horrific fatigue where I can barely make it up the stairs without stopping to take a breath..
Also when I am awake (which is rarely) I struggle to concentrate on anything at all. There is not a moment where I’m not thinking how long have I got left and how long have I got to put up with this. ..
I struggle to do things I like and am depressed most of the time now. ..
My treatment is allowing me to stay alive longer but I’m not actually living, I’m merely existing…
I more often wonder if I should just stop all treatment and just get it over with…
Quite frankly I’ve had enough…
But thanks for asking!”
Or is “I’m doing ok thank you” good enough.
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