The last few posts on this blog don’t make for pretty reading and a few times I’ve been tempted to take some down. But living with cancer isn’t pretty or easy and there are downs as well as ups. I think it’s important to show everything.
The good news is that I feel a bit better. I’ve got some additional anti depressants that seem to be helping, they also help with sleep but make me really tired. My Dr says my body should get used to them within a few weeks.
I’ve also arranged to start some counselling at the Phyllis Tuckwell Hospice and start later this week.
I’m still struggling a bit with life in general and without any warning something will trigger a full meltdown where I just want to feel normal again without any of the tiredness, or aches or breathlessness or upset stomach or any number of minor ailments bought about by treatment.
Probably the biggest decision I’ve made is to take a treatment break at the end of the month. Today, September 6th is one year since I was first diagnosed. And in that year I’ve had 13 treatments and God knows how many blood tests, pills, phone calls, injections, cannulas, scans.
Exhausting is an understatement and I’ve been told it’s ok to take a break from treatment for a maximum of a couple months.
Takes some time, recover and recharge and start again.
Next week I start a two week holiday from work. Sounds a bit odd after all the time I’ve been off work sick but during all of that time I never had a break or went away.
We’re going to Dartmouth in Devon for a few days for some RnR and then will have a staycation for the second week. Try as much as possible to enjoy ourselves and forget about cancer.
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