This arrived yesterday…
And I have mixed feelings about it. I have no obvious disabilities and would feel guilty using this on a daily basis but having had a few occasions queuing around a hospital car park while dozens of disabled bay are staring, gloating at me where I’ve thought why can’t I use those.
They’d stop me turning up for appointments panting and wheezing like a steam train.
More of a concern is that its another tangible sign that I’m not my normal self any more and no amount of denial can hide it. I don’t like being unwell and have always been able to look after myself so it’s the acceptance that’s still just out of reach.
I guess I should take anything that makes life easier with open arms, whether its a badge, some form of benefit entitlement, offers of help and swallow my pride.
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