I’ve been very aware of a slow increase in aches in my chest over the last couple of weeks and I’ve done the best I can to not assume the worst but it’s very hard not to.
The last couple days I’ve had an ache on my sides when I lie on either side. Nothing sharp or severe, just something that wasn’t there before. Today I have a slight sharper pain, like a soft pinch at the front lower part of my chest when breathing in deeply.
It’s uncomfortable enough that I’ve had to have a dose of liquid oxycodone for breakthrough pain.
I’m trying to tell myself it’s just my lungs not being used to being fully inflated but I know deep down it’s probably something I should get checked out.
But I’m scared to.
What if it’s the start of the next stage of my illness? But equally what if it’s something simple than can be easily treated? I don’t like hospitals and my last two a&e visits ended with being admitted and that’s the last thing I want.
I will, apprehensively reach out to the oncology team tomorrow but part of me just wants to ignore it in the hope it will go away. That’s Men for you I guess.
Surprisingly I do get periods where I forget I have cancer then I get annoying reminders like this. This is living with cancer, I’m still new to it but doing my best.
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